tempo: moderato

not really much time to blog recently; starting to mug for promos =\ no lifer

but im kinda bored now so i shall

recently high sch perc sect just had their elections. i was kind of questioning the need of one and thinking its just for formalities. seriously. i mean its quite evident. even when i told 041 abt the section election stuff, he was like acting super excited and guessing that everyone else in the section except liang jun wld be the SL. including john and qihao who are totally out of band for eons already. and he concluded with a sarcastic remark that he is sure that liang jun wld not be the SL. retard.

it kind of brings back memories of how i was elected SL back then. i rmb it was quite a tough period of me as there were quite some power struggle things going arnd. i also rmb our section fought very hard to earn the sovereignty of the section by breaking free of the tradition of having the comm to choose a section's SL. i thought it was quite good cos we finally were offered suffrage and no longer 'disenfranchaised" just becos we aint comm members. Edward had the section go to the amphitheatre and we did our voting there. and how i was suppose to 'do a speech' after the announcement of results and how i totally bo-chap abt it. and the moment when edward passed down the pair of silver sticks to me. that reminds me again, i still have the pair of sticks with me.

thinking of it again, the pair of sticks bypassed the acting SL after me. wilson. i always thought he is never prepared to be the SL. and i was proven quite right. i always thought the pair of sticks shldnt be just passed down just becos the title is being transferred down. i do believe its a set of responsibilities being passed down. the badge is what you wear, the respect is what you earn. i think it really reflects a person incompetency when he is unable to gain the respect and trust of his senior. its like your father not wanting to recognize you for your abilities and wont trust you. i cldnt trust wilson to run the section. i explicitly told him, not until i recognize him as the SL, i will be the SL and that he will still have to report to me any major events and decision making issues, such as the recruitment of sec1s. he didnt. lose trust. and i told him to come look for me when he is finally ready to get the pair of sticks. he came once. i asked him to give me reasons why i should pass down to him. cldnt give concrete ans. i mean seriously, as far as i can see, the section hasnt made drastic improvement under his pseudo leadership, not like there are any to speak of in the first place. and his attendance has always been very sporadic. he has never scolded the section as if they dont deserve any. ok lah, he is a funny guy la, able to bring spirits up. but he cld have done more.

perhaps its selfish of me to do this - using what i have done during my term as a benchmark to label wilson. but seriously, to me, a perc SL, either he specialises in a perc instru, or he's a jack of all trades and is able to play all perc instrus to a satisfactory degree. and a perc SL has a more challenging role compared to other SLs due to the diversity in the section and the great diff in nature of instru as compared to other instrus of the band, making the section very secluded from the band. even if he cant do the above, he shld at least be able to relate to his subordinates and have regular attendance. nil.

i know this cant go on forever. i cant be the one overlooking section matters forever. i mean until now i still bu fang xin here and there and have to go back regularly to check on them. thats why im determined to pass down the sticks finally this time after the elections. and perhaps thats why i have been giving liang jun quite some stress becos i expect alot from him. and i do feel apologetic that i have to impose such stress on him; expecting him to emulate the good examples his previous SLs have exhibited and fulfill what they werent unable to bring out during their terms. i want to pass down the pair of sticks. i have college perc sect to look over now, and there are a set of reponsibilities and challenges i have to take up; and paradoxically, having supposedly mature and same aged subordinates doesnt make my life any easier. i have to pass down the sticks. and its more than just a pair of sticks. the passing down signifies the senior having the trust and respect in the junior in handling the responsibilities. and that greatly surpass having the SL title written in your superficial testimonial.

i await liang jun coming forth to ask that magical qns. and i dont want to wait for long. i have waited long enough to fang xin and pass down.