tempo: presto

for some reason, im really driven now. not sure if its becos of the scholarship day with all that talks and exhibitions

yea the exhibition was quite fun.. jee and i were going arnd koping freebies. lol. and today is actually the first day i sit down to really think abt my future - scholarship, major, uni, career. previously i would keep shunning away from thinking about it cos i'll just get a headache.. i havnt quite decided, and as advice, just narrow it down to a few options first. i must say, MOE and MAS seems quite lucrative. there isnt anything that really pertains to my interest per se, which is somewhat the same as jee, and that is to just learn languages, travel arnd, make some money and lead a happy life. languages pwns ^^

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also lately i have been more focused. maybe its rainbow after the flood. i've kinda straighten my thoughts and decided to have more faith in myself instead of investing so much in others called "friends". you cant count on "friends" to cheer you up. you cant count on "friends" to be there for you. you cant count on "friends" to appreciate you. you cant expect "friends" to reciprocate. arguably, these ppl arent even friends to speak of, they are just ppl that enters and exits your life. sometimes, real friends are right there in front of us but yet we dont see and instead we invest so much in ppl we deem as "friends". more often than not, im really bad at discerning btw the 2 types. investing so much may just bring disappointment. i cant afford another breakdown, at least b4 As, so i've decided to believe myself more instead.

and i must thank jiasheng for listening to me rant. and liangjun for all the pseudo-intellectual chat we had lol